"The Emptiness"

This is a poem I wrote at Christmas to express our struggle with infertility. My husband and I dreamed of having a large family our entire lives. Unfortunately we both have issues in the fertile department. We were blessed to get pregnant with the help of amazing people through frozen embryo donation. We got pregnant on the 2nd try, but unfortunately we lost her at 24 weeks without explanation. We named her Hope because she was our last hope at becoming pregnant. Also because the biological Mom's name is Faith, and with Faith, Hope and love all things are possible. We will never fully understand why this had to happen, yet as they say, when life gives you struggles you can either choose to let it break you, or let it make you. I'll be honest I'm still angry about it, and it almost broke me completely, for good, but I refused to let it.

God never promised this life would be easy, but He did promise we won't have to go through it alone. Even though this story didn't end up the way we hoped, it was still a blessing. It gave us closure to our infertility struggle, and it allowed us to have given 2 beautiful souls the opportunity to experience eternal life without suffering in heaven. We also lost a baby in an adoption attempt with amazing friends. But again, the gift of having 3 babies on heaven looking out for us, waiting for us to get there is a true gift!!! Getting to heaven is my main goal in life, I know they were granted instant access, and to know they didn't have to go through any suffering is a true blessing!!! While we weren't blessed with our own living children on earth, we are blessed with many children in our lives, through nieces and nephews by blood, and by choice! And that alone is a true gift!

    I want this space to be a place where we can support each other in our struggles in life, and cheer each other in through our victories in life. There will be a lot of space for interaction. This isn't just my page, is OUR page! Welcome to our family!

    "The Emptiness"

        By; Kori Plett

We imagined there'd be many to fill the seats in the Christmas cards,

And yet the seats remain empty making Christmases so hard.

 Even before the loss of our beautiful babies souls,

The desire left so many holes.

We buried our dreams of children when we buried our baby Hope.

Yet we strive on continuously learning how to cope.

We know that God has a plan, greater than our own,

Knowing that gets us through, but it doesn't stop the dreaming of how they would have grown.

Children were our greatest hearts desire,

But we will continue to live with our hearts on fire.

We will live to bring others joy and cheer,

And even find some of our own through out the year.

And every time we shed a tear, we will be grateful we we at least got to hold her a short-while here.

At least with a physical loss we were given some closure,

Even though it's hard not knowing what God has in store.

We will do our best to live God's mission for our life,

We are grateful for the gift of love through husband and wife.

We will remain grateful f

or all we have been given,

While looking forward to the day we meet you in heaven.

Being embraced by the love of God will be the greatest gift.

We will continue to love with all we have left.